Venting

I honestly wonder what it is about my personality that makes it physically impossible to keep my feelings inside. I have begun to feel as if I over-emote to compensate due to the general population and a standard of under-emoting. I think that loneliness also leads to over sharing when someone finally comes around to listen. I find myself in a constant state of wonder when it comes to balance and sanity in other peoples lives. Is their house a disaster when they don't expect company? Are their dirty dishes piled high.? Does their laundry overflow? Is there an odd smell coming from random places inside the home? Does it seem that they feel as if they can not ever catch a break.? Is this a concept that only parents of small children feel? Is this a concept that only people who have prioritization problems face? Is this something I am failing while the rest of the world stands back and wonders how I can be so bad at my job? If only I had one thing I was doing well at, maybe I could use that self-esteem to accomplish all of those other failures.
Tomorrow will be a better day.